Friday, January 15, 2010

Disobedience

Hmmmm...  Ummmm...  Well.... OK.  So...

I don't want to write this post.  I don't want to admit that for the last 2 months I have frittered away my blogging time doing anything but blogging. I, whose common refrain to her daughters is "choose to be obedient.", does not want to confess that I am disobedient.  Of course it is likely that you knew that. Since the scripture says " All have sinned and fall short of the glory of God" (Romans 3:23) I am quite certain you knew that.  I am not sure why I have been putting off writing. I have material. I think it may be just getting started.  Newton's First Law of Motion states that an object at rest will remain at rest and an object in motion will remain in motion unless acted upon by an outside source. I think that was me - an object of great inertia - unwilling to get started putting down the ideas and lessons rattling around in my brain just because it required starting. Seems terribly silly as I look at it in writing. However today I was 'acted upon by an outside source'. A very dear friend sent me note today on Facebook asking if I was finished blogging. This required of me to answer honestly that "No I am not finished. I am merely disobedient." UGH! She replied with " Get un-disobedient... and consider this a butt kick! :-)" This coupled with another friend saying to me last night "when are you going to post again?" has given me the impetus to just sit down and type. To get un-disobedient. 

I started with a confession. Now I ask forgiveness of the Father and of you. I also challenge you. There are areas in every life we don't look at too closely because we don't want to admit our disobedience. We don't want to quit frittering. We do not want to examine our motives for disobedience. So my challenge is: Look. Take stock of your areas of neglect. Pray. Ask Him to show you what can be let go of and what is disobedience and how to move into obedience to Him.

Adonai - I have been disobeying... again. Father forgive me. Thank you for sending me a nudge. Thank you for reminding me that this isn't just for me. But for you because you said too. Help me to be obedient to you in each moment. Caite


I will be going back and catching up December so please bear with me as I do.

1 comment:

Sarah said...

Hi there - continue to act on those things in your life that have been pre-decided upon by yourself. I am amazed by how many excuses I make for myself... I gleefully take part in making them ... and then realize that I have re-decided upon my pre-decided heart and I am angry and frustrated that I continually have to go back and get back into the success that I have set up for me! For instance... today it took me all of an hour and 30 minutes to paint the bathroom walls that I have been putting off doing - because it would take too long! Ugh!!! And, it usually only takes 10 minutes at the most to 'clean up the kitchen' including the horrid dreaded job of 'unloading the dishwasher'! :-) I have to stay in my pre-decidedness of life to enjoy the time that I really do have instead of argue with myself about the time that I don't want to!
Smiles